Completely Missed My Mark...

So this was a very disappointing day. What basically happened, was that...I lost.

(self-satisying ranting ahead)

Not Madaya

Here is a graph. It has peaks.

Peaked...

Can I just say I feel like I've reached the peak....
This tumultuous epoch has finally started to simmer down.
I've bashed against the waves, ran through the currents.
Deep, I've gone quite deep into quiet waters.
Though calmer, safety is still not assured.
Drowning, sharks, hypothermia, and whatever the fuck.
Only thing left to do is to ride it out.
Let it roll, Let it flow, Let it grow.
Hopefully to be cast ashore.

I have to finish reading Gangster of Love...Beatnik Poetry is floating in my gray matter.

This is where I exhibit Narcissism albeit vindicated

 In the feeling out stage of starting a blog, I think it's appropriate, as stated in the introduction, that I should try to get closer with my audience. Establish that relationship and let it grow. I guess to do that, I'm devoting a section of my blog to building that bridge, and showing people the history behind me, RC Marcelo. Welcome people to Narcissistic Facts.

  For this session, I'm dedicating this to my Family and my city, who will always be there for me, willingly or unwillingly. Tonight I will spend sometime describing the city where I live, Makati City, after all, the getting to know process starts somewhere, so might as well start in the nearest one, my home.

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Makati is considered as the Financial Capital of the Philippines, a city bustling with hectic work days and a very busy nightlife, a place where life never seems to stop. You always see people shuffling about in this city, wherever you walk, sooner or later you end up walking in a group. It is like the city that never sleeps, the city lights never go out even at the dead of night, as if to convey that at Makati there is always someone “home”. I can also assure you that there is never a dark corner in Makati—at night the lights are so bright that you could still see the clouds floating amongst the orange lit sky. However, surrounded by the ever present buildings and the scores of people, I still see my life in Makati as somewhat lonely.

I should be doing the Bio Post Lab

I push and pull, with force usually unrestrained.
I reach out to you, or at least try to.
I know it's in vain, but something in me doesn't want to quit.
It satisfies me, though quite quickly, to just graze a touch of you.
I force myself again,
This time will be different,
I'm sick and tired of nothing happening
I push harder,
harder, as if to break you,
I stop
because I'm tired and exhausted
but mostly because
for what I've done,
I find it harder to get close to you.

Damn that tissue paper getting stuck in the test tube. I hate Chem...now to do some Bio :D.

Gago! May bangs na ako!!

After three weeks of growing my hair, may bangs na ako PUTA!! :D :D :D

This is where I introduce myself

Hello. I guess I have to start with an introduction. I am Mario Narciso A. Marcelo, though no one calls me exactly that. I think it's right to establish a sense of familiarity, so you can call me RC, that's what friends call me, or you could call me arse, that is what my enemies call me. Like or hate, Familiarity all the same.
I am needy, occasionally selfish. I used to piss on the shower. I cut class. I tease people and they tease me. I am a failed athlete. I am a failed Musician. I am a failed writer. I am a Failing Health Sci Major. I have potential , never lived up to it though. I drink. I smoked. I curse. I don't know what I'm doing, nor what I want to do. I love, but have never been loved. I have been kissed, but never kissed. I laugh, I do this a lot. I study, though not a lot. I cry. I jeer. I'm honest, though I can't tell when I'm lying. I hurt people, just by living. I could go on on everything that I could do, but I think I'll stop, nothing I said is that unique or special, I'm a normal Human just like you.
Honestly, I don' t see why strangers would be interested in my blog, I guess only friends would be. The thing is though, I'm planning to write about everything in my blog. Everything from my sadness to my happiness. I'm prepared to show you a side of me that is not masked or filtered. I'm giving you the benefit of seeing me as I am, raw, natural, and weak. With that said, I guess by reading my blog we could actually be friends. Though you are a stranger, out there in God knows where, I can honestly say I trust you, you are my friend. So please, read this blog. After this introduction, I feel that we are closer, hope you feel the same way too. I promise that this blog will be insightful and interesting, if we are indeed friends. Nothing empty will flash in your monitor, everything has a meaning, well I hope it has. After all, if you're able to find meaning in the words I write, I would be able to find meaning in my life.